Ignored

Been ignored a lot lately. I can’t tell if it’s because I’m annoying, if people just don’t care what I say, or if people have no interested in the topics and just pretend they didn’t hear it.

Happens with work, social, even random people - although I’m not so butthurt about that one. In a relatively public forum, a private forum with ‘friends’ shall we say, I see what others say and I respond to them. I’ll sometimes share something as well related to the topic - but I’m generally just left ignored. Am I speaking out of line? Am I the wrong person - did they want attention from someone else?

It’s at a point where I’m just considering not saying anything. But I struggle with that - idk if it’s human nature or just my nature but I want to talk to people, share thoughts, ideas, jokes, memes etc.

I guess I can see the appeal of social media like Twitter or FaceBook, but I see trying to form meaningful connections on there pointless. It’ll be like screaming into the void - an empty, uncaring void. Even if someone sees what you say chances are they won’t care, agree or respond. If they do take the effort to respond it’s probably to flame. My social media feeds as I have them are curated as such that I don’t see anything from anyone I don’t directly follow, despite the efforts of those to change the defaults. I don’t think I’m alone in this, I feel a majority of people would probably use that feature, and only peek at the more public feed when they want to see random things.

Heading towards a very quiet, lonely and insular existance very soon as I get older. Feels like the more I feel frustrated / annoying by this, the angier I get and the worse my temper gets, making it harder to make friends in the first place. I’m going to try and count to 10 before responding to anyone, either work or personal, if I get mad by what they say - I feel like I respond very angrily straight away when that might not be neccessary.