Man I hate people

I’m so sick of people. Or rather how people treat me - maybe I’m the problem. The person I sit next to at work, I feel like we get along pretty okay, like I wouldn’t want to be friends with the guy but for work it’s fine. We chat and stuff, but I’ve noticed fairly frequently he’ll just ignore me, especially when it’s work related. Like I know I said “hey soandso” loud enough for him to hear, he just pretends to not hear and ignores me when I’m looking at him. Like is it that hard to just say “sorry hang on a minute I’m in the middle of something”? It’s just fucking rude.

Then the same person, when people will come up to my desk to talk to me will 100% butt into the conversation and just hijack it and talk over me. Like ok this person came over to talk to me, wtf are you doing? Shut up and stay in your lane.

Work also still sucks. Nothing to do, no ‘interesting’ work, any work I get is just the same boring L1 shit I’ve been doing for decades. Nothing changes there no matter how much I complain etc. My manager is only interested in 1 person in my team and just ignores the rest of us or considers us as fodder. To be fair I guess he never wanted to be a manager but just took the role to keep that 1 person from leaving the company which would’ve been a big loss - especially for the manager since I believe his income is directly tied to how well our team does.

I should really just leave and find another job but it’s not that easy in this current job market I guess. I found a job that I should apply for the other week, but afraid of change and all that.

Have an awful headache starting out, so today is gonna be a “let’s try not to vomit” kind of day, yippee. At least until I get home and get some sweet sweet painkillers in me. I’d keep some at work but “clear desk policy” means we can’t even have drawers to store anything in. I guess I could store some in my allocated ’locker’.